Hi you lovely people! How are you? I cannot believe we are already halfway through June!
Summer is well on its way, bringing all the heat and ice cream with it. Technically, we still have another week or two of Spring, so I’ve been doing some last minute spring cleaning – physically, spiritually, mentally, and emotionally.
- Just to catch you up on some huge life updates:
I had my first ever surgery at the end of April. It was just an outpatient surgery to repair a bone in my foot and everything is healing nicely! I’ve had to be non-weightbearing for EIGHT weeks and it’s almost been the death of me. As someone who likes to get things done myself it’s been a huge learning curve to be able to ask people for help. I’m very excited to walk again. Sorry crutches, but your retirement is coming soon.
- I started a new (dream) job in May and I’m loving it. It came out of the blue when I wasn’t looking. Just when I had started to give up and believe that maybe I needed to find a new dream, God showed up in the best way. I won’t give too many details, but the whole situation just proved His faithfulness and His sense of humor to me once again.
All that to say, as I was sitting on the couch recouping after surgery, I had lots of time to think.
In our culture today, it’s so easy to become complacent with where you’re at. I feel like people are either striving and climbing all the ladders of opportunities they can find, or they’re sitting back and becoming complacent, waiting for things to fall in their lap.
Lately, I’ve come to realize there’s a difference between being content and being complacent. According to Webster:
- Content: pleased and satisfied; not needing more
- Synonyms: comfortable, contented, fulfilled, satisfied, willing
- Complacency: a feeling of quiet pleasure or security, often while unaware of some potential danger or defect; self-satisfaction or smug satisfaction with an existing situation, condition, etc.
- Synonyms: smug, unbothered, untroubled.
It’s a good thing to feel content with where you’re at and what you have, but it’s when you cross the line into complacency that something in your thinking probably needs to shift.
During my little spring cleaning session, I wanted to be brutally honest with myself. I decided to weed out anything that shouldn’t be there – no more complacency.
– I took inventory of all of my relationships and my habits.
– I cleaned my room.
– I went through my budget to see where the majority of my money was going.
– I even went through who I was following on Instagram…
When you take stock of your whole life – spiritual health, physical health, emotional health, friendships, overall happiness, habits, etc… – you will more than likely find a bunch of areas that need some work.
Here is where I had to do some heavy lifting. These areas won’t fix themselves. If I want to see change and improvement, I have to do the work and make the changes.
I’m a very all-or-nothing kind of person. I’m either ALL in or ALL out. I’ve learned that if I try to ease in or change things a little at a time those changes won’t stick, so I make lots of drastic changes at the same time. I reworked my budget and decided what my priorities are (buying a house>makeup). I started the Arbonne “30 Days to Healthy Living” challenge. I started taking photos for the blog and learning new editing tools. I started reading again. Basically, I started doing all the things I had been “meaning to do,” or “intending” to do one day.
Intentions are good, but action feels even better.
Now, just a few weeks later, I’m feeling the most content I’ve felt in a really long time. Not feeling self-satisfied or feeling like I can’t be bothered; but feeling comfortable (in who I am/where I am) and fulfilled. I’m at peace.
I’ve always loved the idea of Jesus giving us rest, but I don’t think I’ve truly understood what it meant until now.
“Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.”
This kind of rest doesn’t mean taking naps or sitting still. His rest is something that’s deeply rooted in you so that you can do the work He’s calling you to do from a place of rest. His grace is what keeps us from striving and burning out.
This verse is a game-changer when we let it sink in.
He wants us to live freely and lightly, not bogged down by all the pressures, labels, disappointments, and whatever else the world tries to put on our shoulders. We get to choose to go to Jesus and lay those things at His feet.
This might have been all over the place, but I haven’t written in far too long and needed to share what’s been on my heart and in my head. Hopefully, you can relate or learn something!
I’m so thankful for you, always.